The surgeon told me I had an hour, a day or two max before massive internal bleeding.
It all started with unexpected bleeding Friday night and severe pain on my right side Saturday morning. The sped me from Lawndale clinic in an ambulance to St. Anthony's mid-afternoon and I was in surgery that night to treat an ectopic pregnancy.
"While most pregnancies result in the birth of a healthy baby, occasionally a pregnancy goes wrong from the start. Ectopic and molar pregnancies are examples of this. Sadly, neither ectopic nor molar pregnancies can result in the birth of a baby. And without prompt treatment, both can endanger the life of the pregnant woman."
Today I was released from the hospital. So I have been saved as a result of modern medicine twice over. First from a molar pregnancy in 2005, and now from an ectopic pregnancy. Everything was so fast, now that I'm home I am trying to process this, "neither molar or ectopic pregnancy can result in the birth of a baby" and "without prompt treatment, both can endanger the life of the pregnancy woman".
I have felt called to marriage and family ministry since I was 16. I have wanted a big family. Of late, I have accepted that which God has given--an Ethiopian child through adoption--and let go of the dream of more children by birth (after five years of infertility). And, now this and why is it that I have endured both of these? What are the chances that I would have both of these life threatening pregnancies? I don't understand. I feel that a dream killer and life saver are both at work in my life.
2 comments:
Holly did you know you were pregnant before the bleeding? I just can't imagine sifting through all these facts and feelings AFTER the fact. Man I sure am sorry. It's heartbreaking. I know.
I found out the day of the surgery; however, I thought I was pregnant three weeks before that...for a whole week ...until i got my period. After the fact sucks.
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